I am the resurrection of second guessing.
Black men, watch your back
cause, most likely,
I’ll be standing right behind you.
But not in a location where you can see me.
No, instead I’m decked out in all black,
hiding behind that third pole from the curb,
out of sight and blending in perfectly with the flow of the night.
See, its not that I ever really had any intentions on becoming a stalker.
I guess I just kinda crept up on it.
But, see, what had happened was…
I had trusted one too many brothas
and listened to way too many girlfriends.
And before I knew it,
I was out on your back patio,
peeking through the back window
and flashing back to the backlashing and backstabbing in the past.
And I just didn’t want to go back there again.
See, I have a habit of putting my all into every situation,
and though I already know it to be fact,
I could never fully get with loving somebody wholeheartedly
and not getting that shit back.
So now I’m three cars back
trailing you on the freeway
and thinking that these shades kinda came in handy for the mission I’m on today.
I’ve become the new millenium hacker
in the form of a black girl,
cracking secret codes,
planting microphones,
waiting to see if you’ll deny that shit after.
And see, it wasn’t even really my intuition,
but more of an illusional addiction
that had me crouched down behind that parked car,
wondering why its taking your ass so long to come up out of that post office
cause, see, it really don’t take nobody that long to buy some goddamn stamps.
Oh, I see.
He think he’s slick.
But I’m gonna catch his ass,
and that little heffer he messing with too,
cause I know she know he got a woman.
But women so damn disrespectful these days
that they don’t even care anymore.
And its all in the resurrection of second guessing
that would have you falling face first in love with the fear of the unknown,
wondering who’s he with at home when he aint with you.
Talking ‘bout he’s sleeping.
Negro, you aint asleep at no damn 8:00.
I know, cause see, that’s when all your favorite shows start to come on.
And see, the voices be taking over sometimes.
But I just had to realize
that it all comes out in the wash.
So ladies,
we just need to put in another load
and let God cleanse our souls
cause whatever anybody’s doing behind your back,
believe me,
eventually you’ll know.
Cause see, having total control of a situation
is realizing that you have absolutely no control at all.
So the next time you get the urge
to do a garbage can search,
know that if you go out of your way looking for dirt,
you will eventually find it.
Its just that the resurrection of second guessing
keeps you wildin in the pain.
It keeps you from enduring the day to day.
It prevents you from learning from all the past mistakes you’ve made.
So ladies,
let’s stop guessing
for a second
and be still.
-Scorpio Blues
